Tuesday, July 22, 2014

baby girl clothes!

I'm not gonna lie, one of my favorite things about having a girl is the clothes.  Today when I dressed Amelia, I pulled out her old bobux and nearly died when I saw the entire outfit.  Bobux is a New Zealand company that makes adorable soft-soled shoes for babies/toddlers.  The pink moccasins were too adorable to pass up, not to mention they are $20 cheaper than Freshly Picked.  I seriously wanted to wear the noodle's outfit today.

Monday, July 21, 2014

going with the flow

Amelia's teething, which means no one in our house is sleeping so well right now.  I woke up beyond exhausted this morning, and rather than spending the morning in pjs trying to find a "game" to play so I could just lay on the floor, I decided we were getting out of the house and going on an adventure.

We ended up at Starbucks for breakfast, went to Vroman's for a little book shopping and then onto Whole Foods.  By the time we got home, I was certain she'd crash for several hours -- I got 45 minutes. Sigh.

Luckily, we had a spur of the moment play date at the park with friends and had the best time - minus the part where Amelia was walking around with a dirty band-aid and sharp piece of metal...just a reminder that motherhood is never perfect.

Friday, July 18, 2014

thankful for ...

It's almost laughable how long it's been since I've posted anything.  To be honest, sometimes it feels like motherhood has kept me from being creative. Actually, I'm plenty creative with Amelia: figuring out ways to entertain her for 12 hours a day, getting her to realize that milk tastes good (even though i never thought so), and making her laugh when we're spending two hours in urgent care on a Saturday night, waiting to be seen.

But, I feel like along the way, I've lost MY creativity.  Whenever I sit down with a friend, I feel like I have nothing exciting to talk about.  The other night Jeff got home from work and said "Go do something for yourself."  I literally sat there and had to think about what I could do, and was it really worth doing?  I mean by the time I got to wherever I was going to go, was it worth it? Would I rather just veg on the couch watching terrible tv?  Did I have to put on makeup? And driving?  Ugh.  It's just that these days all I feel is exhausted.

And there's this incredible pressure to love all aspects of being a mom, but I'm gonna say it.  It's hard.  So people without children, stop reading.  I always thought it was so annoying when people complained "I'm sooo tired. I never have a moment to myself."  But, I get it.  I'm one of those people now. And I know that is 100% cliche, but it's where I am right now.  It goes without saying how ridiculously much I love Amelia. She's my favorite person, hands down, but it doesn't change the fact that some days I feel like I've lost some of my energy and I just don't want to turn into that mom whose whole life is her kids.  I want to be more for myself. for Jeff. for Amelia. 

While I'm working all that out, I'm still grateful for so many things. Here are few highlights of my week:

The Mediterranean bowl at RFD.  The almond feta is ridiculous.

Discovering a little bird's nest on our front porch. Amelia loves listening to the tweets.

Family dinners and a baby who is a very adventurous eater.

Presents from my crafty sis-in-law.  This tray makes me happy every time I see it.

Wearing pjs to Target